Thursday, February 12, 2009

My Lover

It has been an unexplainable, all-consuming, untamed, all-or-nothing, love-hate affair.

I knew from the very first instant. He swept me off my feet, suddenly, instantly, completely. Without so much as a cloud of warning, he stormed into my life, seduced me and made me his in a way I can never belong to anyone else.

He is relentless, my lover. He will never let go. He disappears, sometimes for long enough to lure me into thinking that maybe this time it will be for good. My soul longs for him, like a wild river for the sea, but maybe this time I will break free of his intoxicating grip, at last.

As a hurricane wind, he swoops back to claim his place in the very core of my heart, which he then leaves behind in pieces. I feel his grip again, tightening around my being while I let him in with painful, sweet surrender... I close my eyes, part my lips and once again, I am his. With every fiber of my being, with everything I am. He leads me into ecstasy. We become one.

And then the pain again. As in an addiction, I am ever recovering from this intoxication, ever succumbing anew... He can be the gentlest, most attentive lover and awaken every part of me to something I never knew before. Knowing every nuance of my body and soul, playing me like the most exquisite instrument, he can make me feel happiness so intense that it hurts. Then leaves me open, like a wound, naked and torn...

When he is gone, I look for him behind flat faces, hoping he will apprear as out of a cruel joke, console me like a child, hold me into his arms, steal my breath again and give me the bliss I have become to know so well... When he finally comes back to me, I forgive. As I always will.

A perpetual story of love and passion. I envy those who haven't known it. And I pity them.

My lover has had many faces, many voices, many embraces...

And one name.

El Tango.


Anonymous said...

Hey, WAIT a minute!!! He's MY lover!

But I'll share :-)

Wonderful post, BTW. All silliness aside.

Malena said...

Oh, fine! OUR lover. Let's face it, there are many of us. Which gives me an idea for another post, think about all those just beginning, wide-eyed, still in the honeymoon stage, poor unsuspecting women! There should be some sort of a consent form before people's first tango lesson: You are assuming all responsibility for what is about to happen to you, please think carefully before engaging.
Thank you, Johanna! Hope all is well, we missed you,

Anonymous said...

LOL! Doesn't every milonga have an "Enter at your own risk" sign next to the entrance????

DJ Mauringo said...

Well, I do not share your "lover", but I do share your passion. :-) I have just started a blog on Tango in Paris, city in which I just moved. I will put my comments on the French milongas I will visit and describe my nightlife activity as a Tango DJ. Visit my blog from time to time, if you are in the mood ... Un abrazo!

Malena said...

Dear DJ Mauringo!
I am glad we are sharing a passion, if not a lover :)
I will definitely be checking your blog, especially because I might be in Paris for a few days this summer and have to find out more about the tango scene there. Keep in touch and besos from both!

DJ Mauringo said...

Well Malena, I am sure that you will not be disappointed about the tango scene in Paris ... there are plenty of milongas every night! When you are in Paris, contact me and I will try to show you the best places! Un abrazo

Henry said...

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If you see an event that has wrong information or is missing, make sure to fix it. The site is totally free with no ads, so hopefully it's something the worldwide (and your local) community can use and enjoy :-).

Take a look and let me know what you think!

Malena said...

What a fantastic idea, Henry! We've needed this! Let's keep it up. Malena

Henry said...

Thanks for the kind words Malena.

It's about time we had a single, free, centralized resource for all tango dancers everywhere. Hopefully we've made it easy to use (and a little fun too ;) ).

When you have a sec, can you check your community and make sure all the information is complete and correct? It would also be awesome if you told your fellow dancers so that we can spread the word quickly.

Thanks again, and happy dancing!

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